Posted by Tessa Cole on:
I'm afraid that I have too many positive thoughts for my future. Mainly because I don't know the difference between being positive and being unrealistic. It seems like it's either the same thing or at least very similar.
This fear stems back to when I was a teenager. My fourteen year old thoughts were filled with hopefulness for my future. I thought that by the time I got into my twenties I would have a great boyfriend, be having lots of great sex and in a great job. Boy was I wrong. Ain't that a shame.
I've got this new hypothesis: By clearing my mind of unwanted, unhealthy thoughts, life and the things that go along with it won't feel like such a burden anymore.
Sounds good right? Now, how the hell do you do that? I'm concerned that this new hypothesis is a coping mechanism. Like most coping mechanisms, they don't last that long.
How long can someone practice clearing their mind of clutter before they realize it's been quite some time and things still haven't changed for the better? What do you do then?
And what scares me even more is - I still have hope for the future! I hate to think how hard reality will smack me in the face when I'm in my thirties.